Well hello to you all and I’m so sorry that I haven’t been blogging but I’m back and ready to go.
I have missed you all and I just want to thank you for all your comments and good wishes. I just needed some time to get my head around the last week or two. What a whirlwind of emotions and trauma we have had. My poor loved ones have suffered so much and seen me so ill. We went on Friday the day of the Abseil from at 10.30 to you can go home at midday to a Doctor coming to see me at 12 o’clock and saying forget cancer if this infection and the abcesses are around your heart you won’t survive two weeks, emergency scans followed and I’ve got the all clear. How do you process all of that?
Sepsis is awful and I was paralysed, I couldn’t move my body at all. Being in hospital was just terrible and I didn’t sleep at all whilst in there, or eat.
I love being at home with my loved ones and behind all the trauma they have been working so hard on Daisy Den and so that I’m happy when I get home. I am so blessed, I’ve cried so much, been through so much and yet at every turn there just seems to be a lucky angel looking after me. I think I was within hours of death with sepsis and when Steve called the Ambulance. Apparently our house was full of medical team within 4 minutes and can you imagine Steve standing and looking at all of this this unfold. I was out of it and as they suffer you don’t remember just flashbacks. The stress and worry day after day has taken it’s toll on us all.
So where am I now? Well grateful to be at home. The whole experience has left me in a bit of a sad state, I’m bruised and battered physically but that will get better every day. I’m left with a very attractive set of legs. My right leg has lymphedema which is where lymph nodes are removed and your body is fighting an infection it can swell up, very sexy and I have to wear a special stocking all day. I can only fit into my UGG boots so it’s a good job winter is here. The nurses come in everyday and I’m hooked up to a drip of antibiotics and then that’s it for treatment at home until 6th November.
Steve and I saw the Oncologist on Friday and we have a plan. They need me to be fit and well enough before we start Chemo again so I get a treatment break which I’m both happy and concerned about as the longer I’m not on chemo the risk of the cancer getting into my organs is higher however they are the experts and they say if I start chemo again too early I may get sick again and I don’t want that. So the plan is that I start chemo again on Wednesday 18th November and this will be cycle 5. That’s the normal chemo and then they will layer the extra chemo on top of that. The KRAS test being returned to me as having the Wild type of cancer which is good for me as I can have the extra treatment that may extend my life by up to 30% and not good for Richard and Rebecca as I have left them with the potential to have the inherited gene. Now I have told them that annual paid for tests is the only way to go. They have to be aware of the risk to them and their children. This is no bad thing actually as we all take are health for granted too much and think bad shit will never happen to us but it does and if you are aware of the risks you have control.
Now I’ve got to say how overwhelmed I have been by my BHS Family. They are paying for me to have a ultimate, state of the art Superbed which will mean that after months of not being able sleep with my Mr Wonderful I will be able to. How on earth do you ever say thank you for that? The price is unbelievable for a bed but like the hot tub it’s a life changing piece of equipment for me and Steve.
The other thing that they have done is to agree to distribute the Calendars to all stores from our house as we were going to have to do this ourselves to save you all the cost. How fantastic is that? Plus they have agreed to Merry Hill being an extra store so this takes all the pressure off my mom. How wonderful is my BHS family? They are just so fantastic and I can’t begin the thank them enough, sometimes there are no words big enough.
So I’m back to you all as I get so much love and support from you all, and it’s slowly but carefully fightback time 🙂
I’ll be blogging again every day, don’t you worry with photos of Daisy Den. Thank you all for your love and good wishes.
Welcome Back xxx
You’ve been through so much as has your loved ones
Take it easy
Love & Hugs xxx
thanks my angel, your prayers and love are appreciated so much xx
Soooo nice to see you back xxx
Love and hugs to you all xxx
lovely to be back 🙂 thanks for your love and support xx
Hey normal service is resumed! Hurray! Sounds like you have been through the mill ! But glad you are home and things under control! Thinking of you all… Love and hugs Chris x x
Loving the love and hugs Boss 🙂 xx
Welcome back….Here’s to blog overload, I for one have missed you “warts and all”…xxxxx
I missed you all too, so much but I’m back 🙂 xx love to Millie too xx
Woo woo your back so so glad to hear from you, you had us all concerned….glad the blogs are coming back so we can keep updated… so so wanted to speak to one of you but understood you all needed time….cant wait to see pics of daisy den….lots of love to you and all the family xxxxxxxx
pictures to follow and let’s arrange that day together hey with Aunty Shelia, that would be wonderful. Name any day next week apart from Wednesday xx
That would be great if your feeling up to it…ive messaged you some days xxxx
Oh how lovely to have you back. You’ve been in my thoughts certainly every waking hour over the last few days as I wonder how you’re all coping. As I said in an email to Steve, you were probably out of it, it was him, Rebecca and your Mum that I felt so sorry for in the first 24 hours. It was like that with Ian’s finger. One minute it hurt a bit, the next minute the infection was spreading and they were operating to save it. Awful experience, so I can only imagine that yours was horrendous.
How super of BHS to give you the bed and how exciting. We certainly want a picture of that when it arrives!
Now promise us all you’ll take life gently and just yell if there’s anything we can do. You have our emails. Love from us both xxxxxxxxxx
Thanks Hilary and cake any day to suit you and and visit apart from treatment time would be wonderful xx
We are off for a couple of days to hopefully finish the Thames Path then I’ll get baking!
Excellent and cake would be lovely to build up my strength :-)xx
So glad you’re back, it’s killed me not to get in touch, but I had to respect your wishes,
Hope you go all one way now,
BHS hey, what a terrific company, so glad this bed will help you,
Look forward to your blogs again,
Thought about you every single day,
Loves ya always, xxxxxxxx
Loves ya too and daisy den nearly complete so it can be shed to shed chats soon 🙂 xx
So pleased your back home with your lovely family ,you have had a really bad time ,so now time to get you fighting strength back lots of love xx
Thanks you so much for your thoughts and good wishes, always xx
Glad you are home. You must take it easy and not try and be superwoman doing all and more as usual. You are a superwoman anyway. X
I certaimly am and I’m back on the case 🙂 but this time I’m going to do it properly xx
So sorry to hear that you have been so poorly Wendy but its great news & heart warming to have you back blogging, you’ve been greatly missed !! Great news also for me to hear about Merryhill selling the Calendar, hopefully my mate Kaye will save one for me before they sell out. Carry on the Fight back we’re with you all the way xx
So excited to be seeing the Calendar soon as I’ve not seen a copy. BHS will ensure Merry Hill have enough shock don’t you worry xx
Hi Wendy ,so pleased that your on the mend ,missed reading your blog in the bath!! Love and best wishes ,Kim,bhs newcastle (toon)xxx
LOL bath time reading is never good with the length of some of my posts 🙂 best wishes to you and your beautiful children xx
Hi so pleased you are well enough to write your blog again. Really look forward to seeing the photos of daisy den. How amazing are BHS being with getting you an all singing all dancing bed hopefully you and Steve can finally managed to sleep together again. Can’t wait for the calendars. I hope your pain won’t be to bad and you can get some much needed sleep tonight. Sending you Steve Rebecca and your mum much needed love and hugs XXX
Thanks Mary and we will be giving those big stores a good run for their money don’t you worry 🙂 xx
So glad to see an update from you X so in my thoughts X
Need to know when your calendar hits merry hill store so can pop in to purchase xx
I’ll post as soon as they go on sale there for you so you can get your hands on one or two or buy loads for Christmas stocking fillers 🙂 xx
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Pleased your back Wendy! Missed you and Will still keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
Thank you so much for your prayers and for your concern xx
Welcome back,hope you are just relaxing and enjoying your home and your family,keep thinking of you in the hot tub,only wish you had a glass of champagne too,maybe in your treatment break.What a fantastic Company BHS have turned out to be,you could be an online recruiter for them.Dont go mad and overdo things I think Rebecca, Richard and Steve deserve a break from all the stress even if only for a few days.Love to your MumI can only imagine how she was feeling. Love ex ex ex
it’s been so hard on them all, just terrible but we are going to be doing things the right way now 🙂 xx
Ah Wendy, so lovely that you have been able to come back to blog us all, I’ve missed you.
Just so pleased you are feeling better, and hoping your pain is under control now too.
That’s brilliant news about the new bed and the calandars , well done BHS.
And a very big well done to you too
Much love ooxx
Fantastic isn’t it about the bed and the Calendars, I’m so blessed. Thanks you for your concerns and I’m sorry that I worried you all xx
Welcome back, have missed you xx
missed blogging so much too as it’s a way to you lovely people xx
missed you all too, very much xx
So glad your feeling a bit better but you still need time to relax and spend time with your beautiful family. Let us know what date the calendars are likely to be in merry hill BHS for? I have popped your bunting in the post today so I hope you get it in the next couple of days. I got your address off Kim as I did not want to disturb you. Hope you don’t mind. Missed your life on a page but feel so relieved your back. Don’t feel that you have to respond to my messages as I’m sure the amount you get every day is enormous. Take care my sweet and best wishes to you and all of your family. Xxx
I’ll post as soon as I know that they are available in Merry Hill don’t worry and I missed you all so much so it’s never a problem replying to you at all, you are all too important to me and give me so much strength xx
I will chase the arrival date tomorrow and let you know xx love the bunting
Lovely to hear from you again. Missed you.
Much love.
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missed you all too, very much xx
well that was a worry and a traumatic couple of weeks for you all….glad you are starting to feel a little better, being at home will make all the difference.
look after yourself
xx
I will Michelle and thanks for your support xx
really, really worried about you over the past few days. did’nt like to get in touch as you said you needed time to get over your time in hospital. really glad your back home.
we need pictures of the daisy den can’t wait to see it going up, and what it’s looking like. bet you can’t wait to occupy it in all it’s glory.
good news about the drugs and the extra time you will have with Steve and the family. that’s excellent news. love to all the family.xx
Yah your feeling well enough to blogg so that’s a good start, missed you.
Super duper bed, mmmm lovely at least you can share a bed with Steve in comfort, not alone downstairs.
Rest up and we will catch up soon. X
Thanks Mary Poppins, I’m very blessed by the people in my life, yourself included xx
Good to have you back! So pleased to hear BHS are looking after you so well x