Well hello to you all and I’m so sorry that I haven’t been blogging but I’m back and ready to go.
I have missed you all and I just want to thank you for all your comments and good wishes. I just needed some time to get my head around the last week or two. What a whirlwind of emotions and trauma we have had. My poor loved ones have suffered so much and seen me so ill. We went on Friday the day of the Abseil from at 10.30 to you can go home at midday to a Doctor coming to see me at 12 o’clock and saying forget cancer if this infection and the abcesses are around your heart you won’t survive two weeks, emergency scans followed and I’ve got the all clear. How do you process all of that?
Sepsis is awful and I was paralysed, I couldn’t move my body at all. Being in hospital was just terrible and I didn’t sleep at all whilst in there, or eat.
I love being at home with my loved ones and behind all the trauma they have been working so hard on Daisy Den and so that I’m happy when I get home. I am so blessed, I’ve cried so much, been through so much and yet at every turn there just seems to be a lucky angel looking after me. I think I was within hours of death with sepsis and when Steve called the Ambulance. Apparently our house was full of medical team within 4 minutes and can you imagine Steve standing and looking at all of this this unfold. I was out of it and as they suffer you don’t remember just flashbacks. The stress and worry day after day has taken it’s toll on us all.
So where am I now? Well grateful to be at home. The whole experience has left me in a bit of a sad state, I’m bruised and battered physically but that will get better every day. I’m left with a very attractive set of legs. My right leg has lymphedema which is where lymph nodes are removed and your body is fighting an infection it can swell up, very sexy and I have to wear a special stocking all day. I can only fit into my UGG boots so it’s a good job winter is here. The nurses come in everyday and I’m hooked up to a drip of antibiotics and then that’s it for treatment at home until 6th November.
Steve and I saw the Oncologist on Friday and we have a plan. They need me to be fit and well enough before we start Chemo again so I get a treatment break which I’m both happy and concerned about as the longer I’m not on chemo the risk of the cancer getting into my organs is higher however they are the experts and they say if I start chemo again too early I may get sick again and I don’t want that. So the plan is that I start chemo again on Wednesday 18th November and this will be cycle 5. That’s the normal chemo and then they will layer the extra chemo on top of that. The KRAS test being returned to me as having the Wild type of cancer which is good for me as I can have the extra treatment that may extend my life by up to 30% and not good for Richard and Rebecca as I have left them with the potential to have the inherited gene. Now I have told them that annual paid for tests is the only way to go. They have to be aware of the risk to them and their children. This is no bad thing actually as we all take are health for granted too much and think bad shit will never happen to us but it does and if you are aware of the risks you have control.
Now I’ve got to say how overwhelmed I have been by my BHS Family. They are paying for me to have a ultimate, state of the art Superbed which will mean that after months of not being able sleep with my Mr Wonderful I will be able to. How on earth do you ever say thank you for that? The price is unbelievable for a bed but like the hot tub it’s a life changing piece of equipment for me and Steve.
The other thing that they have done is to agree to distribute the Calendars to all stores from our house as we were going to have to do this ourselves to save you all the cost. How fantastic is that? Plus they have agreed to Merry Hill being an extra store so this takes all the pressure off my mom. How wonderful is my BHS family? They are just so fantastic and I can’t begin the thank them enough, sometimes there are no words big enough.
So I’m back to you all as I get so much love and support from you all, and it’s slowly but carefully fightback time
I’ll be blogging again every day, don’t you worry with photos of Daisy Den. Thank you all for your love and good wishes.